to all t hem in the past

following in his footsteps....

Dearest ____________,

I wanted to write to you to let you know that you're right. I over reacted. I actually thought you cared about me when it was only physical. Yea the sex was great but all things both good and bad must come to an end. And since I've been away I've come to realize that I am much stronger now because of what I went through during my relations with you. ______________, its so hard to see you all over the place being the person you are, I wish you the best most of the time and other times I wish I didnt know you. But with time I know I'll forget you like you have forgotten me. But wasnt that time at ____________ good? Some of the shit we did was crazy and fun. So, ___________ goodluck with life, with the ladies and everything else. I have found a new person to give me everything that I tried to find in you and others, Me. With that a final goodbye.

Monique.


that was a response to something i read in a myspace profile. i knew this person. i just had to sa y something back. it might have no been directed towards me but it was something that could have been directed towards my way. who knows. and since him and i dont speak it shall just remain as a response from me.

More to blogg soooon. But i have shit to do now. so i'll discuss this later. peace.

workingout.za.spring.

working out: I hate it. but i must do it to get that body that i think would make all the boys come to me. why would i want something like that? I have not a fucking clue. but this is one of those moments where i choose to fall into the temptation of society to be thin and attractive. but then i can tell myself its mainly for me to feel great about myself (not that i dont already*) but a fit body would make the hormones in my body go high and make me happies. plus i'll fit into that skimmpy outfit i'm planning on wearing when i return home to more suitible weather. so there you have it. 30mins of cardio everyday, and when i decide to fuck the treadmill i'm doing 40mins of weights and core in my room. either way i'm trying to get that body i've dreamed that i had. so yuck. fitness sucks.

ZA. if you dont know about Dale then skip this section. anyhow we're in contact and of course it gives me a big smile everytime he says hello or watever. its great. its now a part of my "must see before you die" list. and also the maritius islands. ( i just fucked up the spelling i know). Anyhow i'm just happy that i can stay in contact with someone who lives so far from me.

Spring. I guess thats what the season is here. people are wearing flip flops and shorts now. even if there are thunderstorms and snow showers in the forecast. to me its really interesting. i was told this is beautiful. i guess i had been deprived or Saved from the whole idea of four seasons. i kinda like: Warm, Hot, Really Hot, Fucking Hot and Hell Hot as far as being the weather words that the reporter says almost everyday of the year. spoiled weather brat, thats what i am. and i'm gosh darn proud of it. anyhow it is nice that i dont have to wear 8 layers and only 2 will do fine, and not having to wear my big poofy jacket is nice too. but its still cold. o yea. 've been wearing lots of hats these days. so excited on the new bold choice to add something to my style. anyhow. spring is something new. and did you know when they say spring showers it really just fucking rains?? wow. who'da thunk?

Poor Parenting.

So, Just finished dinner with my family and my sister had her boss's family come over. I had to finish my food fast, which i dont really like to do, but anyhow its because her boss's daughter is a pain in my ass. She just annoys me. what is wrong with people these days? treating their kids like they are god's gift to earth? My mom told me she could have had an abortion with me but chose not to, so I'm thankful that I was kept. These kids? Think they rule this world.

Tie your hair when you eat. How fucking hard is that? Dont cop an attitude with your mom...
I told the girl tie your hair or shave it off. I once got the clippers and turned it on to scare my niece who didnt like tying her hair (she learned to tie her hair when told) . i hated it when i was a kid, but i did it because food and hair dont mix. ever!.

so what does this mean? god help the children i have yet to bring into this world. because they will know whats up and be well behaved. cuz i have no problem with being real and showing them how it is. anyhow. thats it for now i'm sure i'll have mroe to day in a few days.