it finally happened!

I've been waiting.. for a long time. and it finally came.. sleep! goodness did i miss it. i finally got the REM sleep that i was waiting for. about 13 days of disturbed restless nights. and then i slept well. although on the second day i ended up on the floor somehow.. i guess i needed the hard floor to contrast my cloud like bed. but it was nice..

so once the sleep came. i think the antisocial me finally woke up. i went outside and went to the movies. i spoke to people who were outside of the ring of my closest. although I'm not completely out of my little 'leave me be' world. but i think once the semester start i should be better again, when forced to see and interact with people. today someone said i need to make friends.. but friends are hard to come by, i have many and perhaps too many acquaintances,
"i don't need new friends, i keep the ones i know" -evidence. and he's right
for me friends and i mean true friends are hard to come by. I'm a bit strange. i let people into my life very quickly and see if they can deal.*(not that they know everything... they just have to handle the amount of crazy bizarre thoughts that form into words and reality.) if they cant then they do not get the fruits of my friendship and my loyalty. which is fine with me. too many fake relationships will make you lose your identity of lies.

fresh as a daisy. i'm ready for the world yet again. bring it baby, lets do this living business.

shalom.